Gaining weight, cleaning and dreaming of LA

I woke up at 5.50 AM this morning and I have no idea why :-) Maybe it was the beautiful sunshine and the blue sky. It's not like me but and I don't need it either since I'm still out of work. But I got up and went ahead and made breakfast for me and Hasse. A very good one I might add. We have a habit now since I became unemployed and that is we eat breakfast for an hour or more, chatting, reading the newspaper and eating in a calm mood. This is the way to start the day!

But I'm so angry because I have gained so much weight since last year which I discovered today when I cleaned my wardrobes. I had to throw away a lot of clothes and this makes me so sad and so angry. I'm not the one that talks about weight, mine or others because that is not important to me. The important about a fellowhuman is the inside and the heart. The first thing I notice about a person is his or her eyes. Then I see the rest, but if the eyes are kind and friendly the chance is that the person is a warm and lovingly person.
Anyway, now it has gone to the extreme I think and I can't figure out why. My doctor says it's because my body is set on war. There is too much going on around me. I'm out of work, bad economy (which I have never had before), my disease isn't good right now and there is some other issues which I don't want to talk about here.
All this adds up to my body thinking it's danger and needs to contain every thing I put in. I have stopped eating candy alltogether, I eat the same kind of food as I always do and eat less than most people, I have one evening when I allow myself to treat like cheese doodles, I don't drink sodas at all just water. And I keep myself busy in every way except exercise which I'm not able to do right now because of too much pain.

My sister wearing  a great t-shirt :-) 

( I hope you don't mind me posting this photo Jo. I think it's great!)

Me in Santa Monica

I think the best thing would be to go to my sister in Los Angeles for a month or so to rehabilitate me. With walks, calm and none of the demands I have at home. But it's that small business of money of course ;-)
I also would like to go to Barcelona and see H.E.A.T, the Poodles and Treat perform but once again there is money issues. It would be nice though to be able to meet my other sister who I have never met and also my nieces who I'm friend with on Facebook but never have met. My son, Jonas, have last time he was touring Europe and came to Barcelona!! So it's time for me to meet them too I think :-)

 Barcelona