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Monday

Today wasn't a very good day. Already yesterday I felt bad and had trouble falling asleep. It's this course that is haunting me. Not that I don't like it or don't like the people in it. Don't get me wrong. These people are some of the nicest I've met in a long time and so very supportive.
But it's me or rather my body that can't cope. There is a reason to why I have pension half time and only able to work half time and this became so very obvious now after only two days.
I got aches and pains directly after and didn't feel well until Friday. Then again yesterday my heart started beating so fast and that's why I couldn't fall asleep.

So when I got to TSN I went to see my consultant and talked to him about how I feel and we directly went to Ylva who's our teacher. We have come to an agreement that I get individual training with Ylva and only 1 hour each time. So the next time I will meet with her is on Wednesday and then we'll take it from there. I'm so sad though to leave the group but that is necessary and that was the sad part. I left when we had lunchbreak and I went home.
It feels so much better now but I'm actually proud of myself that I was able to say no this doesn't work. I actually listened to my body.
This is a huge step for me.

I leave you with a wise quote:

Life can't wait until tomorrow because you don't know if there will be a tomorrow.

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