Emptying the flat and new H.E.A.T release; Keep on Dreaming

Today me, Danniel and Helen emptied Dad's flat. He didn't have much but still it was a couple of hours job to do it. It's sad and it gets so real when you throw the clothes away. Actually we didn't throw them away because most of them were hardly used so we donated to "Myrorna" (Salvation army) to people who need them more.

I had bought a sandwichcake and afterwards we went to Mom and had lunch and ate the cake. It was very good and we had such a nice time. Today Mom was calmer and could talk better. We went down memory lane and we had so many laughs.

We also put up some of the paintings, that Dad have, in her room and she was happy for that. I had also printed out (on real photopaper) some photos from the funeral.

To end it all we celebrated Mother's Day. It's tomorrow but we did it today already. I had bought a set of trousers and a t-shirt to go with them saying: World's best Mom in silver and pink. Everything else was black. She really liked them.

I can tell you I'm completely exhausted probably as much of fysical as emotional fatigue. Today I felt like jumping on a cruise ship and just be there and relax, read a book, meditate and be in my thoughts and feelings. Hasse doesn't want to go and I don't think he wants me to go by myself.
I also wants to go to LA to my sister there because I always gets so relaxed when I'm there. I don't have the pressure as I have here and I think that's why I'm so relaxed. Also both Jo and Marvin are such nice people and let you be yourself. I'm sad they are so far away. It's not that easy just to pop over. You can't just go there for a week. Three weeks is perfect. One week to get into things and get over jetlag and reconnect. Then two weeks of spending time. By the end of the three weeks it seems there haven't been enough time despite having 3 weeks.
Home again it takes me over a week to get into the right time but it's all worth it.

Jonas and H.E.A.T played in Ljusdal (Light valley) yesterday night with a completely new set and he said it went great. Tonight they are playing in Umeå where they first appeared as support to TOTO 2 years ago. On Monday their new single, Keep on Dreaming, will be released and I have already ordered 10 copies!

Tomorrow I'm going to Gävle to see Gunilla and Per and get some treatments. Always nice to see them and the girls.

Sleep well and enjoy each day :-)